stupid flu bug that i cant seem to get rid of. argh.. hated it...
now it make me feel so sleepy and tired..my routine for yest and today have been waking up, watching a little tv, reading some book, sleeping and eating.. nothing much cos of this flu thingy.. grr.. so irritated by it.. this flu thingy actually made me realise that i have many people who are concerned with me like my gan kor kor. do u noe that he offered to buy porridge for me? so sweet! hee... mummy is the only mean one who keep scolding me for not tkaing care of myself.. someitmes i get so pissed with it.. but i think it must be her way of showing concern.. sometimes she worry too much. too much til it maks me worry.. i always think its beta to be frank to her by telling her ewverything. and dunno y i think she is jealous.. jealous tat i spend a lot of time with baby more den her.. hee.. anywya baby is sick too. been coughing quite badly. and i think cos im not by his side... baby. pls pls. take care k.. u noe.. i was feeling quite confused due to some declaration by someone.. i was so distracted til i wanted to pour out everything to someone and i even thought of hsuan as the one.. but she is jus too fdar.. wanted to tell baby oso but cldnt pluck up the courage when i saw him so sick so sick in the weekends. but eventually i told him everything yesterday. i felt so glad tellong him everythign.. everything abt the person. seriously.. i dunno whether to believe that all these while the person has something for me a not.. i dunno whether to believe a not.. but i chose to believe.. i felt sad not becos im not with him now, but its jus that fate made me cry for two whole years for nothing if he was really waiting all these while.. u noe i almost got this spilt second of saying yes, i want to get back to u cos he was jus so truthful and everything but i firmly said no.. cos i noe deep down, someone lurve me a lot and cherish me a lot.. i noe he means a lot to me as well, thats y i wil never let that person go.. never ever.. i want to have my future with him.. and i really made that decision 4 months ago... never going to break my promise to myself...
actually im so confused by the different kind of love in this world.. yest mich asked me what is crush, what is infactuation? what is love? i dunno how to explain but i jus crapped some nonsense for her to hear.. opps..
seriously.. i seen so many different kind of rtn... like leroy and huishan.. leroy and huishan were so sweet for the past two yrs when they were togetther but only after two yrs. leroy realised that she was jus his rebound. sad rite? that day when i asked my fren why he break up with his gf, he din say much but he said he tot he can start all over with a rtn.. i am scared when i hear things like people only realising their true feelings after a period of time.. cos i dunno if i would ever meet a partner who would only realise that he never really like or love me after a period of rtn.. i am scared.. but i have absolute faith in my rtn with baby.. sometimes gals are like this. they like to be told that " i will never let u go.. pls dun go with anyone else k? please.. i swear i dun like anyone else anymore except u.. i swear i dun even think of her anymore" these cheesy lines sound familiar? it normally comes from some soap opears that we see on tv. but it is these lines that attract a girls heart, these lines that made the girl trust the guy even more... most guys like to keep eveyrhting to themselves.. but gurls are different, they liek to express themselves,, they like to be told things directly..though direct comments can sometimes be hurting but they stil prefer the frankness and truth of the other party....
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