im back in hall again.. all alone in my room as pam has jus left for her 2nd war of the week. argh.. sometimes i really wished exams are not that impt and emphasized.. the word exams simply stressed me up and i cant stand it.. aiy... this remaining 8 days are not going to be too good if i dun hold on.. grr.. dun even think i wil be able to see my baby at all.. cos im not returning home til tues.... u noe sometimes. i hope that there will be someone by my side while im studying.. at least i noe there is someone who is watching and guarding me so that i wun laze around.. but i think this is all bullshit that im thinking of.. i mus always remmeber that i have to be independent and not rely on others too much.. or else i will be a lazy bum bum... bleah...
nowadays i keep looking at websites for toning of butts and thighs.. haha u mus say im crazy.. but i serously think if i dun lose any weight or firm my butt.. im going to be out of shape reall soon (or am i?) i have never been so conscious til the day where i couldnt wear one of my jeans! argh....... shh.. dun tell anyone please.... it really pisses me off when i cldnt fit my butt in and i c all the wobbling and wobbling of my fats.. think im too used to myself being lean and firm before.. and now when i dont look that way.. i get too cautious! save me from the piling tyre fats! be it batman fats! tyre fats! bummy fats! thunder thighs fats! argh!!!!! *hmm this make me think of something.. why am i so afraid of fats? does being fat bring u any disadvantages in the society? why are some fat people being despised? how abt those fat beauty competition that is held in thailand? hmm............. interesting.. i shall write (my gosh.. u mean write essays?? u are going to write 8 essays in two days of ur exmas.. and u wan to write more???) abt it one of these days. muahahhaa*
crazy me.............................................................................................................................