its a brand new week!! wah! time really flies ar? its the last week of my lessons. and i am still in my slacking mood. goodness... anyway im glad i am able to come so far.. come on gal! u can do it! after exams u can go n relaz for all u wan.. for all u desire to.. anywya really like the show my girl! its so cool n corny,, bet baby likes it too.. mayb except for the ending.. but thats how directors like to have their show.. end with a suspense and let the audience imagine and discover for themselves. hee.
anyway glad i told baby all my fears yest.. though i think i upsetted him a bit.. but i feel that i got to be honest to him rite? sometimes i am really scared.. i scared i am not the real person that he really like and i may jus be his rebound.. but i guess i got to have trust in him and pray that im not his rebound... i really hope so.. p keeps asking abt him.. think she may still like him but dunno y baby is so irritated.. i noe its irritating at times to think that the person u like keeps concerning for u now when everything is over.. but is it really becos of that ? or is it u still haf something for her and when u c her msg. u feel irritated cos u wan to get on with life with someone that u like at the moment and somehow that msg stops and reminds u that actually in ur heart u like someone else and u yearn for that concern from her? i dunno. hope u can clear this doubt in ur mind.. i am tired of being hurt again. i dun wan to be hurt cos of someone else not forgetting someone again.. a did it to me.. i dun wish another case to happen. esp when this time its a fren that i noe so much... i know im falling deeper in this rtn but i really hope i wun get hurt.. i am scared.. im esp scared when the third month approaches.. i duno y.. i haf never ever pass that line (3 months and a few days)before and im super scared.... i really hope everything will be fine.. really hope..
i noe i ever said before if someone that i love found out that he does not love me anymore. i will choose to let him go.. but will i really do that in reality? i really dunno.. gals are like that.. we are so contradicting in ur words and actions. sometimes it jus pisses me off as well.. why cant we say and do what we preach and mean? grr.. guys themselves oso.. why cant they express themselves fully and clarify their own minds firm and fast? and make pple wonder what are on their minds.. is it all jus a s part that makes u happy??? i wonder.. humans are so unpredictable.. its becos of these unpredictability that makes life so unpredictable. despite all that.. one thing i know n have in my policy is that.. one must never regret what one has done or he\she will suffer in life..
ok. got to get lunch from dearie cousin! cioz