TGIS!!
woot woot woot!
i lurve the idea of lazing in bed at 9pm
and not squeezing with the rest of the working force in trains

2 weeks have passed
and i must say i have grown a little as the days go by
Never would i belittle the term "impossible"
cos NOTHING Is really IMpossible
the first few days of the week was filled with anxiety, panic, disappointment, nervousness, irritation and worries
but as i learnt the technique to bluff my way thru
i managed to contact the people whom i wanted to
and even hit my target record at the end of the week.
I never imagined myself as to what im doing today
or never expect to even speak to people who are high in the corporate ladder
but i did and am proud of myself.

If you have watched "the banquet",
you would hear zhang ziyi telling this to daniel Wu (hoot hoot!).
"the best mask in the world is your face"
Many people show their emotions on their faces, and in doing so, you may find yourself vulnerable to those who wishes to exploit your weakness.
Similarly, though i havent met any of my speakers,
i need to find the mask in my voice.
As long as you sound fluent and someone important, you will make your way through.
it may seem a bit pretentious but thats how the world works
people look up to you cos you have a hold over them
and not cos of your genuine self,
esp in the corporate finance world where every min or even second matters to them

dont worry frens, im still my own ditsy crazy hooty little full of rubbish mad fellow that you have known.
other than my old self,
i found a different side to me.
one that is more confident of herself and believing in the things that she set out to do
i thank my family and friends for all the support and yes,
right now, i totally understand why you needed me to climb out of the little mousey hole
and not rely on you anymore

however, despite being more assuring,
there are definitely some issues that i cant find an answer to
for example, i cant differentiate
what is genuine or fake
what is like or love
what is true or false
what is accept or reject
what is facing up to the reality or choosing to stay away

i know such stuff will be answered as i grow older
and the thought of being older definitely reminds me of my own birthday
yeap, i know im thick skinned
but hey, its SEPTEMBER!
and i have gone thru 21 yrs plus of my life to remember this date of mine
hahha
yest on my way back home,
i overheard some jc school kids singing their frens a birthday song over the phone
sweet, i must say
and it just reminded me of memories to how i spent my birthdays

to my jie meis, i still remember how you all hide in KS hm toilet
and bluffed me into thinking that im really going to her house to study PHysics.
silly me really lugged 4 big and thick books to her house
and not touching a single page due to the celebration of my bdae

to my jc canoiests, i still remember the Big duckie stuff toy that you all gave me in yr one and yea, a blue sun dress that i have only worn once
still remember how they bought a cold storage cake and waited for me at the canoiest table
and sang me my song as i came down the slope to the canteen

to my neighbours, i still remember how you all made a rose trail from the com hall to my room. lots of love messages along the way that makes me wonder if i have any secret admirers and yes, not forgetting the silly combined bdae surprises with pammy dear and i and the moon birth cAkes.

to my cousin and val, i still remember how you two came specially to turn me into a swan and gave me a tweezing eyebrow session that i would never forget.

to my cp babes, i still rememeber the papaya that you all drew for me and yes, the gifts and love that you all showered upon me on the special day.

if you asked me what's my biggest bdae surprise, that would be done by my family. I still remembered that its my jc year two and i was really tired from studying in school. My parents and sisters didnt allow me in til they switched off the home lights. Upon entering the house, they held a cake and sang me a bdae song. That little simple celebration just made me cry and definitely had left a deep impression in me.

My most memorable bdae would be my 20th cos thats when i reached the big 2. Again, lots of love showered upon me and i had macs breakfast and 20 presents awaiting at my doorstep.Besides that, i had the best hand made presents and dinner that overlooked the deep blue sea. i had my first big bouquet of lillies and i could still imagine them in my hands at this moment. I would never forget this day cos everything that happened jus holds so much significance to me.

21st birthdays are always the best cos thats when all friends and relatives come to unite. Its the best celebration ever and i thank all of you for your presence, presents and love.
RIght now, im heading towards my 22 and boy, do i feel old as i reflect the past memories. These are just stuff that i wish to note here so that when i grow old, i would still remember these special moments.
right now, i wouldnt wish to glamourise or make this day a big one cos to me, every other day could be our birthdays and it would be similarly happy and fun if you wish it to be.
well, perhaps, i should just stick to my vegetarian meals on it to mark my gratitude to my mum who took great pains to bring me into this world.

man. what a long and boring entry i have typed today.
but yea, may you all have a good weekend ahead!
WEEKEND ROCKS!