it feels kinda weird tat productions is over and i need not meet mel and hans and any other person in the com. I somehow misses the time that we spent together. discussing.. talking and sharing problems with each other.

i felt a bit restless during the last 4 days of term brek. trying to settle down to study hard but it was rather difficult. it feel weird that i have nothing to do other den studying. that should not be the way at this moment as studies should be my main priority in school. NOt hall stuff but only books, notes and readings.

my com has been givn me quite a lot of prob lately. went to the com center n was stuck there for like 4 hours.. goodness.. jus becos i din whine in the high pitch voice, they allow others to jump queue and skipped the person who was waiting at the side. In the end, when they did call me, they took an hour plus to tell me that they need to reformat my com. argh..anyway now its fine. thats y im able to blog here online. its much faster now and i hopefully wish that there are no more virus left in this com. praying hard man. anyway jus realised that laptops arent that good afterall. They are very vulnerable and they cannot last as long as desktop. so if u wanna, get a desktop.. for portable stuff, get a palm top. hahaa.

talking abt electronical stuff. my phone is getting cranky. My messge tone: birdy cannot be heard at times. think i need a new phone.. i kinda like the samsung red one, i think model x460..not sure myself. it doesnt have any camera but im fine with it. think a phone is jus tool for me to communicate with others. i do not need to take photos with it at all. if possible. i rahter get a digital camera that can take better shots and film video.im in love wth the canon cameras.. the 4ooo and 3ooo ixus series. its gorgeous. but im broke. so cant thnk of it. neither can i ask anyone to get for me cos its too ex. I still wanna get my canoe polo brasca paddle.. but it cost like 400 plus... and yes ipod mini.. damn. so many things to get. but no money.. this is bad. humans shant have too much wishes and wants cos these are all extras in life. We should be happy with what we have and be contented.. hee.

sometimes i was jus wondering.. should we ever let go of our past and get on with our future? I noe that when i was younger, i keep holding onto hopes and wishes that i hope it will be realised. but as i grew up.. i realised that not all things can be held on and we need to learn how to accept it. whats over is over. We should learn how to let go of things we need to and look at the bright tommorrow. if there are things meant to be yours, it will come back to you eventually. Dun keep thinking of it or making yourself miserable. cos in the end, you may not only hurt urself but also the people around u.

oh yea.. im glad i have a good rest after productions. was rahter happy abt wed training but i din have the energy to blog abt it. I managed to shoot in a couple of goals! damn happy cos i was never a shoooter.. never.. always told myself to be a player to help my teammates but never think of shooting.. im glad i took the break. mayb sometimes each of us need a break to recharge before we can continue and achieve what we need to. i will not stop playing n improving in polo.. never give up.. never say die....(ps.. my arms really ache today after gym.. im so weak..bleah)