yea. one thing down at last.. kl and win thing is settled.. thankfully. its settled peacefully without any quarrels. hated it when there are quarrels.. jus spoil one day's mood.. anyway yest robert and zhihao came into our room and start talking with us..realised theres a new scandal again.. argh.. rumours. scandal.. it never stops in hall.. but i am so glad once we noe.. it jus stays here in within our blk and no where else..sometimes. i wonder why are we so big mouthed.. we dun like to hear pple saying abt our stuff but why is it the ears of ours will like to listen to such gossips?? anyway yest news was quite bad.. think its an exaggeration of some pple whom we suspect its one of the person who is involved.. he is none other than our all famous bb.... stupid redhead.. really cant stand the way when he gets closer to a girl.. he wil always make it sound as though the girl and him are very close and put a very bad limelight on the girl to the rest.. that time he did it to pam.. and now he do it to my fren.. goodness him. i always wonder why are there such people who are so childish, ignorant to bgr and so tactless abt others feelings when they noe abt it? is it becos he liks to be in the attention.. if it is.. i think its too much a price that he has to pay..his reputation.. his pride in life.. the trust pple has in him... bleah.. despise such pple.. sometimes.. i always tell myself.. there are always two sides of a person. and he may turn to his negative side due to some reasons.. however how much i think abt it, this guy seems to have everything he shld have but he doesnt know to appreciate.. he doesnt go home at all and when his parents came to visit him, he went out hiding and did not meet them. i bet his parents havent seen him since dunno when.. i always think that if guys like that shld be chided.. doesnt he understand what is "yin sui shi yuan" his parents brought him up, gave him everything.. and he take everything for granted.. humans are always like that.. we always hope and wish for the best.. and when we have it, we want more of that something.... why cant we be thankful of what we have and appreciate them before we lost them? thats why i am always telling myself.. never to be greedy.. whatever i have in my life, i mus try to make the best out of it.. i mus always be prepared to the positive and negative aspects of our future and try to get on with life each day with a smile.. yest was talking to pam.. she said sometimes i worry too much.. yes.. i think i do.. but i always think i worry for a purpose.. worry to make me be prepared for the worst.. but i only worry to an extent.. and i wun wory til i make myself miserable which is something that i dun wan to do.. i know somehow there are still some things that i am still worried and cant let go.. still learning how to.. and i noe i can.. last time i think i am too persistent in holding to my past.. it ended up making me upset for a period of time.. it was only after deleting everything.. everything i mean everything that reminded me of the bad past.. be it sms, notes n etc.. it makes me feel better. sometimes i feel that if i wan to get on with life, such things do not need to be kept.good memories are all locked in my brain..if i ever haf to use objects or things to remind me of the good memories.. i think it wil remind me of the bad oso.. i am glad that i deleted everything and will never ever wan to turn back to the past cos i think it only makes me ponder and upset myself and people around me....
k i think i need to go back to my studying.. three more modules down for first time reading!! jia you jia you!!!!