gues what/ i did someting which i said i din wan to yest. argh. dunno whats up with me.. but anyway i am glad i did it. i went to the library to study! u noe y? cos the weather is so bloody hot and i cant stand it! argh.. hate it when i feel so hot and stuffy den i cannot concentrate. think i mus start to sleep early nowadays den i think i will wake up early in the morn everyday starting from mon and go to the lib. mus chop the place where i studied today. its quite good as it is free from distraction as the table is covered and i wun bother to look at others. hee. hmm think i mus control what i am eating. think im turning flabby fat.. dun wan that to happen to me. though baby wun mind but i wun wan his frens to think im fat! hee. so ai mei hor? hahah.. but den again. i think i need things to munch while im studying. in that way i can concentrate. pig!
today is baby free day but i din manage to c or meet him. baby so piggy.. he slept from 10 to 3 plus. argh.. anyway he out eating now.. :) baby very cute today.. he suddenly told me that he wan to be his baby for ever. a bit shocking but i think its realy sweet.. thank u darling.. actually i really dare not think so much.. i always ended up getting hurt last time when i think of my bright future with whoeve i wish.. now i jus hope the both of us are enjoying each other company and give each other the support we can.. and of cos if we can last all the way. it wil be the ideal.. really hope tht..
hmm.. production is gving me quite a bad headache.. eveyone say differnet things til i really dunno who to belive.. and i scared people are depending on each other for wrong purposes.. hope i din mess things up.. really scared now.. argh..