all right. yest was a bad day.. was down with illness and everything.. goodness.. hafnt felt so sick since dunno when.. keep sleepin and sleeping and sleeping. jus like a big baby.. everyone took care of me.. and tey are jus so sweet., thank u everyone.. im blessed to have all of you around.. really blessed..
thank u..
anyway yest over. today is the present! today is a special day.why cos its baby n my 2nd month anniversary! yea! how happy can i get? really happy!!! though baby cant spend with me.. but somehow having this bond with him make me feel so good..
thank u dalring... u r my angel of my life.. thank u..
yest when i was sick.. pam realy helped me lots. think i whine a lot to her which i seldom do it.. argh.. dunno y oso. but when i m sick.. i tend to do ery baby things.. dun like to be alone. and like to be look after.. got a point of time yest i felt lost. cos pam wasnt around.,.baby wasnt there to take care of me.. and i tot he dun wan me anymore.. grr. sometimes gal can be so troublesome rite? grr..
anyway its been a loong week.. glad i finished 4 out of 5 projects.. now im only left with one more.. music compositiobn and a short essay. dunno how will i do it. but hope it will be alright! i can n must be able to do it..
yeap.. met adrian on mon nite.. think baby was sad that i din told him abt it til the next day. sorry darling.. really forgot cos i was so caught up with taking care of joanna and my points allocation things.. so irritating.. think i hurt baby lots. sorry darling.. i realy din mean to... dun ever wan to hurt u..
i always told myself never to hurt my darling.. even though i was hurt twice by two guys.. the ironic part is nmow im frens with that two guys.. and are quite ok with one, which is adrian.. to me.. yunlong is someone i wil be wary and jus talk a little.. it wil be nice to talk more but somehow i dunno.. jus dun feel like talking too much to him cos he hurt me the most.. dun like to hurt others.. and definitely wun wan to hurt my baby.. my baby had been really nice n sweet to me.its a blessing that i can ever ask for.. thougb sometimes.. i am sad that baby never left his first for me.. but i noe.. in his heart. im first now.. the present is the most important thing in life. not the past.. im willing to forget everything n creat the brightest present n future with mydarling..n im sure darling will too.. love u so much..
kk think i need to get to my studfying.. yest din study at all cos i keep coughing non stop.. hate to cough cos remind me of my past when i was 5.. cough so much til i have to c so so so so many doctors. and eat so so so many different kinds of medicine. yucks.. that y i hate to c doc n eat medicince.. piss me off..yuck yuck..
k.. i think i need to study le... exams are coming.. mus study hard.. promise myself and darling abt it liao. so i mus not break it.. yes.. baby.. hang on there in ur new camp k? u can do it dear... praying hard for u..